So yes like all Indian parents, my parent’s ultimate wish is to see me happily married. But I din’t quite know how I’d make it come true, since I was a cynic when it came to romantic love. I had made my peace with the fact that I will never understand it or find it. And this was it for me. I instead concentrated on living my life in the best way possible. Yet every time my parents would start a conversation on this topic, I would end it by saying I’ll do it. I’ll get married. As long as you are fair with me and I have my say in the whole matter, I will listen to you guys. But even when I said those things, and tried my best to believe in it too, I knew it couldn’t be that simple. Arranged marriage. It’s always puzzling to people. Even the ones who go through with it don’t exactly know what clicked or how they decided this is it. Deep down, I know it won’t be an easy task for someone like me to just meet someone thrice and say yes to spending the rest of our lives together with full (or even slight) confidence.
This was my situation: Fully mistrusting towards anything remotely love like and not comfortable with the idea of an arranged marriage.
Until I met him. And a small, innocent crush developed into something so big! From friends to good friends, to where we are now.
It all happened very soon too, within months. I still can’t explain what love is, but that doesn’t stop me from saying I love you time and again. I often I think about spending our lives together, and it seems like an awesome idea. Being together, just seems natural to me now.
Earlier though, being a cynic that I am, I tried my best not to fall for him. I tried my best to keep parts of me hidden, I refrained from sharing everything. And even with the things I did share, I never completely trusted him with it. But he still became a part of my life, a part so big and so beautiful, that it was impossible to ignore or to distance myself with anymore. And why should I?
I took the leap of faith: I admitted I was in love without fully understanding the nature of this love. And since then, I’m just going with the flow! No more over thinking stuff. We’ll see how it goes, and till then, I’m just enjoying the best days of my life!
And here’s the wonderful song from Shrek, serving well as a summary. I guess, that’s how it goes for most people. Cheers! 🙂